What am I doing here? I'm with my fiance. I'm engaged to Teddy, did I mention that? And I don't know if I belong here. I love him, but I don't know that I love life with him. Can I change that?
I don't want to think about what happens if I can't. I can't break any more hearts, mine or his. I've done too much of that.
The number of people I've hurt overwhelms me.
I moved about a thousand miles away. And I miss everyone, and my old self most of all.
