I need to figure out how to say what I want to say to Teddy. For a while, we were both okay with the idea of taking a break over the summer. But I'm really not as okay with it now. I could handle it, yes, if I knew for sure that we would be together again at the end of the summer. But not only is there no guarantee of that, the fact that he could date anybody else would drive me crazy. I understand that he may not be ready to be committed. I don't exactly know how to bring this up to him (and I don't plan to for another few weeks) but we love eachother and we're happy together and I just don't think that taking a break is worth the risk of losing him.