I'm feeling sad.  It's my own fault.  I looked at the texts document again.  Teddy said stuff so often about how sure he was, and how he would never give me up.  I know he didn't necessarily lie but he didn't know himself well enough, or at least he ignored it.  Dear God, keep him safe over break, and help both of us understand what to do, PLEASE.
In Your holy name,
Amen