Man I'm in love with Teddy.  I'm hoping too much - I know I am - but I can't help it, and maybe someday everything will work out well.  It happens for some people.  No particular reason it couldn't happen to me, right?  I want him to be happy too though.  But I promise, if somehow we got back together, I would never hurt him again.  I would treat him so much better!  He deserves better.  I love him, and I have the best time hanging out with him.
I've 95% decided that I'm going to California this summer.  I'm kind of excited.