I miss him so much.  I knew stuff like this hurt but this is so much worse than I thought it would be.  We're taking a week away from each other.  He says it will help him.  I hope so.  I should be unselfish and hope that above all else, he finds what he wants.  But I can't help my selfishness - I am no angel.  I hope he finds that he wants me.
Now, to do something that involves no thinking of him whatsoever.