I don't understand...

Well, Gavin texted me this morning, and... we're going to talk later.  I don't feel much like talking about it, but I don't get it... he didn't exactly break up with me in so many words, but it was the next closest thing, and somehow (just a wild guess) I think it's gonna happen.  I'm hoping - I can't help it; I always hope - that it'll work out, and I have a rough plan (yup, that's me; I never accept the inevitable), but I don't feel like I should count on it.  I haven't told anyone he texted me.  I don't know why, but I don't like to tell the bad things.  I used to pretend I didn't want people feeling sorry for me, and now I really don't.  Isaac has been asking me if I've heard from Gavin yet, and I've told him no.  I just don't want to talk about it.  And I know for certain that if ANYONE will feel sorry for me and want to talk about it, it will be Isaac.  I can't lie to him forever - I don't like lying to him at all - but sometimes I wish I could.