My body is breaking down. I feel like I did yesterday, only worse. I'm finding less to talk about now that... never mind. Okay, you know what? I have tons to talk about. I think MAYBE Aaron has been flirting with me. I'm finding to my particular chagrin that it does not bother me. Of course, he's nice to everyone, and it's entirely possible that he does this to every girl.
Also, you remember I said that Riley wanted to have sex with me? Well, we did. Partway through. And you know what? It was okay. Not great; nothing special. I wasn't forced to... frankly I don't know why I did it, really. I don't necessarily regret it... but I felt kind of sick afterwards. Goodness knows why; I don't like Dana and I have no respect for her. Maybe it was a loss of respect for myself. I thought I was finished with that. Now I feel like a slut. I stopped it partway through - he said that if it felt wrong we could stop - and we decided, no, it was really over. Neither of us were sad about it. He said that he'll make time for just me and him to hang out as friends, which will be nice, because I honestly have missed that. Dana is always around, and frankly I'm sick of it. But I think I'll be okay. I'm over Riley. I didn't think I could be. And as far as Gavin goes... well, I'll live with it. I'm not heartbroken or anything; it just sucks and I wish it had ended differently. (Can you tell I'm having one of my grown-up moments?) And who knows what will happen in the future? The possibilities go on forever...
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